Sunday, February 8, 2009

Turning Point?

I'm tired of thinking about this, talking about it, worrying about it. Critical mass has been achieved. I found a lot of helpful folks over at (thanks for the tip LawIngenue) and rather than be a complete poser, I will at least sit for the lsat, probably the June one. Lookee there, a decision.

I bought Law School Essays tonight. Also am in the middle of Obama's first book Dreams from My Father, which has nothing to do with me going to law school, but might be why I don't post for a while. My recent posts have disappointed me anyway, and other things need to be done.

I'll still be around, as I hope you all will be. I just have to find a healthier balance.


Butterflyfish said...

Hey -- good luck with the stepping back. I've tried and failed a few times.

As to the commentary over at my place re: law school and grades and such. Here's the thing: I went to law school and intended not to worry about that stuff, fully intended just to enjoy the experience and assumed the job thing would work itself out. I went to a school that offerred me a full scholarship but had to take out loans to pay for childcare etc. And I realized to pay off those loans, I'd need a job. And that kind of put me on this "OMG grades matter so much" treadmill. Plus I am competitive by nature and am disappointed in myself and my performance sometimes. Hence the angst. I go to a school with a ridiculous curve and it is the 'weakest' law school in my local market, all of which make me less competitive for jobs before I open my mouth. All of this is to say YOU are not destined to have the same experience I did. I love law school -- I really do -- but I have let one aspect kind of dominate my experience of it. That does NOT have to be your experience -- you can be more like New Duck or CM or Tranny or Andrea (PBB) who never worried about this stuff for various reasons that make them both awesome and very different than me.

Law Ingenue said...

My advice is to take the LSAT and go from there. Take everything one step at a time. Believe it or not, there's no rush to do anything, even law school.

Everyone has a different take on law school, so on the plus side your experience, should you decide to go, will probably be different than the rest of us.

Hang in there! :)

Bea said...

Good for you! I agree with Law Ingenue- you've got nothing to lose by taking the LSAT. One decision at a time is a good way to go. It sounds like you're already feeling more at peace, which is wonderful!

Hyphen Mama said...

Whew! One decision down, one million left to go.

Patois said...

Just 99 more decisions then, yes?

gudnuff said...

Butterflyfish - Stepping see how well I've done that so far. Ha. Thank you so much for that feedback! You sound like you are kicking ass and taking names and my hat is off to you. You also seem to have fun with it (like going to prom, for instance). Sounds like the things you can control, you are controlling with proficiency. Your blog alone demonstrates that in some ways. I love your blog. And I'm very grateful for your willingness to take the time to share your comment above.

Law Ingenue and Bea - Thanks. That is exactly my husband's attitude. I guess 'cause he said it first, I had to question it for three months before agreeeing with him. Ha. Poor guy. The trick is figuring out the studying schedule, plus staying away from the web, apparently! My daughter is the one who will be negatively impacted the most, which concerns me.

Hyphen-Mama and Patois - You're cracking me up. So you want me to decide if it's somewhere between 99 and a million? Plus this one, too? No fair!

Googie Baba said...

Yeah! Taking the LSAT. Good luck.

I have been thinking about Butterflyfish's comment. I entered law school because I genuinely thought that law would be a way to help people. Somehow, I lost myself a bit in the process. I go to a Tier 1 school, and I got good grades, but I didn't do so well in OCI. But I have processed this quite a bit with people. My internships with non-firm jobs have been going great. I don't know what is in store for me. This year I decided to put my family above school - and my grades plummeted.

Gee, I kind of thought there was a point to all of this.

I think what I am trying to say is that law school has been both a rewarding experience and a difficult experience. The clearer you are about what you want, and the more you can hold onto yourself, the better you will do emotionally.

Googie Baba said...

Oh, and it is 1:18 in the morning, and I am up studying - that is law school too!

Cee said...

balance is a great thing to work towards- I think the biggest issue I saw my 1L was fellow students (and myself) struggling with staying balanced! I hope everything works out for you!

Trannyhead said...

Because I like you, I don't want you to go to law school, incur the crippling amount of debt, and then suffer as an attorney. Yeah, I said it. Law school = bad idea.